Ben Higgins made an unfortunate admission as part of a recent podcast interview:
The former Bachelor captain says things aren’t quite so rosy for him these days.
While sitting with Trista Sutter on the last episode of “Better Etc.” Higgins has gotten very real and candid about the impact of being in the public eye on his mental health.
Five years after landing this smash hit on ABC, Higgins admitted he’s back in his home state to do some much-needed soul searching.
“I’m back in Indiana now because of a breakdown, again, in my life where I don’t know what’s going on,” Higgins said on air.
“I don’t know what the next season of life will look like for me.
“I’m further and further away from the show, and at the same time, I need to know what my life will look like and what my legacy will be.”
Higgins is engaged to a woman named Jessica Clarke and has said that his problems have nothing to do with their relationship.
Without going into details, Higgins said he is trying to maintain a positive attitude.
“It’s a really exciting season. The seasons are unfamiliar to me, but it’s also challenging because I’m in a low position,” he continued.
“I don’t see myself as a thriving personality right now. I’m kind of sobbing and detaching myself from a lot of the things I’ve been hanging on to.”
Higgins made his small screen debut in Kaitlyn Bristowe’s of The Bachelorette in 2015.
He finished as a runner-up and was later selected as the top spot for season 20 of The Bachelor.
As such, Ben proposed to Lauren Bushnell during the March 2016 finale, the pair only ending their engagement in May 2017.
This leading role opened the door to many opportunities for Higgins, however, even if it did not end in marriage.
“Suddenly, I went from feeling weird to, over a period of time, having enough people tell me I’m cool to start feeling good about [myself]He said on Tuesday.
“I start to build an identity around that. I’m starting to really feel like, ‘Oh, my God, this is the thing I needed to fill in…’
“I will stay in the group forever. “
In the end, though?
Higgins admitted to Satter that his “fascination” with fame was “starting to fade” – and the more he tried to “reach out” to stay relevant, he felt he had “lost” himself.
“I lived not only for the sake of others, but only for the interest of others.”
Interesting, isn’t it?
Yes, being part of The Bachelor Nation “might be the best thing that ever happened to him,” Higgins said, admitting he’s also unsure of his place in this world anymore.
“I don’t know how to make it my goal now,” he said on Sutter’s podcast. “I don’t know what to do with it anymore.”
“It’s not really a part of me anymore. I can talk about it, I can share my experience about it, but in the end, I was telling Jess this one day, and I was like:
“I feel like my only role on The Bachelor right now is to be there for the contestants who want me to be there for them.”
Earlier this year, Higgins opened up about his past addiction to painkillers, having fortunately overcome the hurdle several years ago.
Higgins said he now understands firsthand “what a satisfaction you feel when fame is poured upon you all over the place.”
But he also understands how “difficult it feels when people walk away from you and a new generation emerges and you don’t even understand them.”
Again: Pretty fun, isn’t it?
We send our best to Ben Higgins and applaud him for his honesty.
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